where and how should i start right now when all of the random thoughts just hits into my head. it isnt that i'm feeeeling troubledd, terrible, horrible or sadddd emo . just that, i felt that it was a neeed to write out the thoughts and feeeelings right inside me. sitting round my rooom, i'm here writting emotional post that you might not seee often in my other post. it's just someday, somehow i felt like expressing out how i felt .

like how i've beeen writting happpy post on life with boyfriend, how we spend each day, and the small little words that i used to express how i felt inside of me. Well, while using the bathrooom a moment ago, i was thinking even deeeper as i never thought i would. usually when one met someone, one only know him/her from the point whereby the path of both lives came together; just as fascinating when two parrallel lines met. and it's only after one gets to know about his/her family , the past would then came into the picture and makes up so much of each other as a person. well to me, the best thing would be getting to know a person, not being his present self, but also the past , and hopefully part of his future.

Well, and while thinking of how i met boyfriend's mum, literally brought me with a smile. It was a terrrible act to met his mum right inside his house, when his mum herself was shocked that i was in . and it followed by a loud bang from her bedroom dooor. Initially when one met into such a situation, anyone would thought of the word ''run'' and yes, having a normal human reaction, we did. however, feeeling right guilty about it, i decided to text his mum with the help of boyfriend. and that's how the second impression changed the first. and when day passes, i was introduced to his family. even right now, his house somehow became my second home whereby i could go in easily just to have dinnner together or to stay in just to chill or to watch any shows.

Thats when i realised, boyfriend wasnt just someone that i could watch movies together with, not only someone that shares my bitter/sweet/sour times or so. as he's already counted as being part of me, and someone who is important that i could not live without. and that brought us to the second chapter of life. not partly adapting to each other but more to being closer to each other where our different family were added into our life to become one . and when talking about this, i'm still gettting uneasy about it. Yup, some may guess it correctly. : my family. and yes, my family indeed know nothing about their daughter having a boyfriend in her life. It may tend to be a unfillal act to me or so. because, if i were to put myself into my parents shoe whereby i'm a parent, i would want my child to tell me that news. because afterall, i should know about it. it kind of contradicting to say this. but well, being an only child in the family whereby everyone loves me, pampered me and stuff. not only that but also having such a tradition mummy who thinks that one should concentrate on his/her studies at this age and shouldnt be wasting his/her time on relationshipp. Seee that? and if that's the case, can anyoneeee tell me how should i tell my parents about it? okay, being troubled because , this matters to me alot. and i wannna let them be the first to knowwwwww about this, rather to be caught outside and know this themselves. it will be even devastating than knowing it late . well,and mummmy's someone that i respect to the max, and someone that i would tell my life stories to and stuff. i even wannnt her to be the first to know and the first to be happpy about it .and if that happpen, i would not neeeed to hide ,avoid anything under the suunn. oh well, but school's just started two weeeeks. and i quess not yet the right time.eeew.=/ this feeeeling seriously suck. but well, it's still the time to hide it for the time being i quess.

anyways, nothing reaally much to blog about today. because it was a usual stay-at-home day at boyfriend's house. while covering ourselve under blanket , watching shooowwww. but still, i enjoyed the moment. somehow comfortable and relaxing.(((; heh! oh btw, it's mummmy's day tomorrow ! dadddy's going to be the cooook tomorrow. and that means i'm havinq nice goood foooood that was of the same standard as those high classs restuarant outside, and whats more, it's bufffet time! heh!;D